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Trembling At the Threshold


With our book – The Way of the Mysterial Woman: Upgrading How You Live, Love and Lead – about to be published on April 12th I am standing on the threshold of a very new phase of my work and life. The book is the ‘pearl of great price’ after twenty years of a committed exploration into how women could develop to the next level of our evolutionary potential. There have been many rewarding gifts and many heart breaking losses during this time, and I can feel it all jangling around inside as I stand here now.

And I am trembling. I have been waking up the last few weeks with what feels like a mix of terror and excitement in my body – tercitement I have come to call it. I am excited about all the opportunities that are possible now as the Mysterial pattern awakens in the world. And my body remembers the last time I stood on the edge of an important precipice in 2012 with the first draft of the book complete and a new program about to launch. I did not take off in joyous flight. Instead, after the brutal death of my husband, I tumbled down into a very dark and difficult abyss.

And now here I am again perched on the threshold between what has been and what will become. What I know to be true is that if you follow the call of your destiny there will be times in your life when you will be required to stand naked on the edge of a new possibility. Whether that is publishing a book, losing someone you love, starting a new job, leaving a relationship, entering into a new relationship, moving, launching a new creative project, following a dream, having a child, saying goodbye to a child, studying something new, or any other catalytic moment of change.

There is something powerful about letting ourselves feel the shakiness of a new beginning. Not toughing it out with positive affirmations like ‘I will not and cannot fail!” or spiritually bypassing it with, “This is what the universe wants me to do and it will all work perfectly” or shaming ourselves with, “What’s wrong with me – I should be more confident.”

What if this trembling is a way that our body signals to us that we are truly at a significant threshold. What if it is a somatic invitation to presence this Great Turning in our lives and not skip over it because it is so uncomfortable? What if we were to stop at the gateway and bow down to the Great Mystery before we stand tall and step through the doorway into what is next.

This is what it means to tremble before the right things. And this has been my practice in the wee hours of the morning – to be with my trembling self and say:

“Little one, little one of course you are shaky. This is a big threshold and it deserves to be honored. Your body knows this. I can’t take away the unknown but I can assure you that you are trembling at the right things.

May you feel the ground of all that has come before in your life beneath you, and may you feel the gentle winds of possibility that will lift you into what lies ahead. May you rest into faith that you are enough just as you are and empowered to do what is yours to do in the world. May you know in your heart that you have within you all that you will need to meet the opportunities and challenges ahead. May you feel my love and all the love that surrounds you in a great embrace of belonging.

Now let’s go back to sleep and tomorrow we will stand together and face into the new day.

Comments

  1. Dear Suzanne,
    We have not met but I feel I know you. Such beautiful, resonant words that I can so relate to. I’ve just read the first two chapters of your book and it is a truly momentous occasion. I feel nothing but excitement right now. You have pulled all the models together and given me what I have been stumbling for, for what feels like a lifetime. You have pulled all the fragments together and woven a New Way. I love, love love what you and Susan have written and will be sitting on the edge of my seat until April 12th – the time is right, the time is now.
    Much love & blessings on what is about to awaken
    Áine

    1. Hello Áine…it means so much to me to read your comment. It was absolutely my hope that all the effort involved in the years of bushwhacking a developmental trail for women and then articulating it in a book would allow women like you to feel a sense of hope, find a path to move along and recognize their own process as an evolutionary awakening. Although our pub date is not until April 12th Amazon is already fulfilling pre-orders so you shouldn’t have to wait to get the book. Where are you located?

      Thank you for taking the time to write such a beautiful response.

  2. Dearest Suzanne,
    Beautiful post and so thrilled for you at this threshold. With you, as together we tremble.
    Love, Virginia

    1. Thank you Virginia…we have walked together in so many ways over this bumpy Mysterial path. I think it is time to get airborne! All my love, Suzanne

  3. Dear Suzanne:

    Yes to our wisdom to "tremble at the right things"….so beautifully said. This post is so resonant and I can see a new early morning practice for myself:-) Thank you for sharing this.

    1. i would love to hear how it goes! I have found the ‘soft animal of my body’ finds it soothing. All my love to you sister Mysterial.

  4. Thank you for this deeply moving post dear Suzanne! So many of us are trembling at the threshold so your words of comfort and acknowledgement are indeed so very timely. I am happy to be trembling alongside you… Preparing to take those next steps that are as yet unknown, giving myself solace and receiving it from your words as well… The mysterial path emerges as we walk it.

    1. Yes you too Jamie are standing at a big threshold right now. And coming toward you is a future that will truly be a match for all that you have to offer. And yes we very much make our path by walking.

  5. Suzanne…. This is beautiful and it stirs something deep inside me, perhaps the trembling of my own Mysterial potential ready to take its next step. Thank you for these words.

    1. Thank you dear Mysterial Sister…we are trembling together at the threshold of our own becoming. We are needed right now in the world. And we need each other. All my love, Suzanne

  6. Wonderful post, Suzanne, thank you! I’m especially appreciating the clear alternative to positive affirmations, spiritual bypassing and shame as we "tremble before the right things." There is, indeed, "something powerful about letting ourselves feel the shakiness of a new beginning."

    1. It is so powerful when we can really ‘be with what is’ without making it wrong. Our bodies carry their own encoded wisdom…time to listen. Love to you, Suzanne

  7. I so love your "to tremble before the right things" practice dearest Suzanne. Your beautiful words to yourself beckon me to find and cross my own threshold too. So excited for the book launch and the book reading at Elliot Bay Books. All on my calendar! Xoxo

    1. Ahhh yes…so many of us right now being called to ‘the place where our deep gladness meets the world deep hunger’. I feel very blessed to be on this Mysterial Journey with you! Love, Suzanne

  8. Suzanne, How timely your words are. Thank you for continuing to share your journey with the women you have nurtured all these years, and how fortunate I feel that I was allowed to be one of them. I am very excited to read your book and know that I will find gems to nourish my soul.

    1. Thank you Diana…your book will be on its way to you this week with any luck! Thank you for your courage and commitment to your own Mysterial development.

  9. Hi Suzanne, what a beautiful gift and offer. I look very much forward to reading this book. My sense is that it will deeply inspire many women to take their rightful place in life and more consciously share their own gifts with the world. Thank you! Juliana

    1. Thank you Juliana for your words! Although the book doesn’t officially publish until April 12th apparently people are getting it early through Amazon. I look forward to hearing from you once you have had a chance to dive in. Love to you! Suzanne

  10. Such a beautiful post and so timely, Suzanne. Standing at the gate of my own Turning, perhaps even having just stepped through and finding myself in a new land, not sure yet where I have landed. But this I know… it is sacred ground. Thank you Suzanne for speaking so clearly about the inevitable mixture of terror and excitement, and for reminding us of the power of the practice of Acknowledgement of the sacredness and Mystery that are here… that "not knowing" is all part of it… and then bowing down to the holiness of This. Yes.

    1. Padma…what beautiful words…thank you. Yes it is sacred ground…interesting how close the word scared is to sacred. Embracing the Mystery is so key to that shift.

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